The Future.

i am so ashamed to say this, but i honestly still have no fucking idea what my future will be like. i mean i know some people had it all planned out- they know what path to take, what college and what they're majoring in, future jobs, etc. I DON'T KNOW, and i'm so pissed and scared at the same time because i'm scared this uncertainty will lead me to nowhere.

i mean i know i'm brilliant ( at the moment) in sociology. but i really wanna work in fashion. how does that even match? and my arts department in school suck = cannot go to design. and i had zero interest in economy pathway = cannot go to merchandising. and i suck at physics = cannot go to technical. AARGGGHHH.

and well, i know sociology is good and all but what job could i get? sociologist, i don't want that. boring.

second, college. i'd die to go to US for some reason. it looks like US is such an opportunist country, and fashion has many branches there. And i mean hellooo FIT? So FUN. 

although singapore is good as a second choice. NAFA looks awesome and it's closer to home and it's asian-y ( duh, we're in the same continent as if my country isn't asian-y).

p.s: in the course of marriage and love i give exception. i let God plan that, but if i may choose i'd like to be married in late twenties hopefully. 

sigh sigh sigh.

i hope God has better things planned for me.